Looking at my past relationships on whatever they were, I always told myself well maybe I wasn't the one. Or maybe I wasn't right for him. I had all theses excuses and thoughts in my head that played back to what if this happened or what if I did this differently. I always blamed me for these failing relationships. I always hear well when it's the right time everything will fall in place. Well I've been waiting and looking and the universe still hasn't made that connection. So what does that say I suppose it literally is just not the right time. But as time went by I just now realize today that maybe I was wrong on the men or man I thought I would be right for. Maybe I was wrong about them. It never dawned on me that I never truly did see them for who they are with me but the illusion or fantasy I had about them. So you know what I'll take accountability for my selections and my choices that I have made in my relationships. I can't blame them for allowing them in my life nor can I blame the fact I wasn't the right person for them. I was wrong in choosing who I thought was the right person for me. Next time the choice won't be mine to pick. It will be given with no questions or doubt about me in my relationship.
