1. Discipline. I tend to procrastinate and brush things off by doing whatever I feel. I need to stop that and just focus and stick to it.2. Patience. I hear it more and more how I want something to happen so bad to where I force it to happen and then I get disappointed when it doesn't happen so I need to just let things flow naturally.
3. Commitment. I think once I master (somewhat habit) the two items above it will help me stay committed easily. I won't procrastinate as much and hopefully I stick to my goals.
I know I sound so convincing right now. The truth is if I were to say I'm doing something, the more of the opposite will happen. So the best bet for me, at least, is this thought out plan and give myself credit for trying. Hey trying is the first step than giving up, which in my mind is automatic failure. So right now failure is not an option.
With that being said, I have 12 months to set up a plan on how to accomplish these characteristics. I believe for anyone to truly gain an understanding of who they are, one must go through something outside their comfort zone. Whatever challenge that may be, it is how you respond to that situation that will help you build your character and eventually make you a better person and the world a better place.
I have listed out my goals above on what I want to build for myself for me to find my happiness. In order for me to achieve that I set out three circumstances to help me get there.
1. I have already started to commit myself to taking this tax course for a week everyday after work. Let's just say it's been a long long seven days. After this course I will be working part time on the weekends and maybe once a week preparing tax returns. I will mainly be working with low income families who may not speak English at times. This will go on till mid April. By then I should be able to learn how to build my discipline with my full time work and my weekend job dealing with people all day. Let's see how strong my discipline will hold. It shouldn't be too bad but I already see myself quitting possibly by mid March at the rate of dealing with people.
2. I will be committed to doing Bikram Yoga for 3 months 3 days a week. I love Yoga already but to do it in 100 degree temperature will be very very challenging. I decided to do this because 1. I want to lose 15lbs., nothing dramatic just want to be more toned and 2. just not up for the rigorous exercise. I want something calming and simple yet effective in all the right places. Plus Yoga is very spiritual along with meditation so this course will help me build the patience I need in my life. I hear it all the time Patience, Patience and now I realize that if I don't enjoy this moment today, I can see my future longing for the past. So I need to work on this!
3. After my Yoga which I will stick through for the rest of my life but it won't be as rigorous in prior months because I will do it less frequent each week. Is to stay committed to something. I tend to want to do everything and all things and yet the minute I start I already want to quit. I brush things off and procrastinate and justify my reasons by doing things later. I flake off engagements with other folks because I can't say no sometimes. I just need to find something I can stick to. So around my 30th birthday I will challenge myself to go to another country learning a foreign language and commit myself to something I'm not familiar with and to get involve in something I've never been exposed to. This journey will help me stay committed because one I can't leave that easily and two It's costing me a pretty penny to do this and three I want to see how far I can go with myself. How much can I handle and how much can I embrace this journey.
This 3rd challenge may be the hardest for me to embrace but once I mastered the 2 goals above it will prepare me to go into this journey with an open mind and a balanced state of mind as well.
With that being said through out this journey there will be no distractions for me. Meaning no MEN! No going out drinking to find men, no flirting with men, wait take that back all the flirting I want because nothing will happen afterwards. I use to miss that when it was so much fun when they couldn't have you lol.
To my friends this year I will be documenting this journey and the people I run across that will help me think and observe the universe around me. So let the journey begin!
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