One month into my journey

Ok the last two weekends have been such a blast I haven't had a chance to reflect on my goals.  Right now I'm slowly dreading going into work preparing taxes.  Ugh I actually look forward to the day ending when it's so slow, yes it's so sad.  Honestly a lot has to do with partying all weekend and then going to work it's hurting my energy.  I'm realizing I am just getting older and drinking and staying up late is not helping.  Oh well it's all worth it.  But I am sticking through it.  I'm in lust right now....I met an attractive Nigerian MAN.  I don't know maybe I'm starting to have a type....Oh my he's so tempting and charming and just the right call for what I need.  I don't know why GOD put people into your lives when you are so not looking or ready for.  I guess that saying is true.  I can't keep lusting for him but he's so yummy!  That's whats throwing me off track because I did say no men....He is the kind of guy that fit's my description of a man physically.  Everything about his physic is perfect.  Now I know when someone is physically attractive how much you just can't resist touching their body.  Keep in mind he does not have a super model body, it's not even like that.  It's just his overall big tall figure that makes me feel safe, and warm, and so feminine.  The way he picks me up makes me feel so comfortable I could cuddle with him all day. I need to get a grip and slow down.  I don't want to get thrown off track on what I'm trying to accomplish.  I will try to maintain a strong friendship with him before anything leads to any confusion for me.   I will continue to live in the moment but goodness I'm falling into temptation.  I wonder how long our friendship will last.......