It's so cliche to hear that phrase all the time,"living in the moment" when you start thinking about your future. Dating can be a fun experience with someone you're actually interested in. However, in time and after time your exchanges elevates to a new level of establishing something more meaningful. Well for me it's becoming more meaningful. Meaningful in a sense that I'm looking for more, something a bit more significant than ordinary dating. Someone to just care for and someone to care for me in exchange. It's not much to ask of anyone but it does matter on who you are your asking it from and how much value of your time is it all worth to bargain your heart for. But how much heart should one give before one can even establish something meaningful. It's a catch 22 because where should you start, from the heart or wait for something meaningful in order to give your heart? I'm torn because my heart doesn't open up so easily when my past relationships haven't taken my heart seriously. It is hard to bounce back from something like that. And to be honest it is so true that there's no remedy to relieve such a broken heart other than time. Time is everything and everything has nothing but time on it. What's even funny is time eventually has an expiration date as well. But that's another debate. I guess my time has come up to move on which I have but I guess the real question is, do I have enough time to go through it all again? To go through the courting and falling stage only to possibly face the unknown, that things may not go well in the long run. It's a scary feeling to have. Oh my it's scary. I'm scared to enjoy the catching moments that brought me back to when I was happy only to foresee what the bad may lie in the future. I guess no one will ever know until you experience it. It's all a risk, its always risk. But the grand question of it all to me is, is it worth my time to have my heart open for something more meaningful or is HE worth to have my heart hurt again. I suppose if it didn't hurt then it didn't matter to begin with right? I'm not sure if there's a method to save your heart and to say you're in love is there?
it's a double edge sword. You can't fall in love if you don't open your heart to it. You open your heart and it's the potential to cause you pain. The bigger question to ask yourself is do you believe in love? Do you want love? Does the mystery guy have potential? If you answered yes to all three, go for it! If you answered yes to the first two and no for potential, wait til a better catch comes along..... Dating is an individual search of one's self. It will give you the keys of what is and what isn't important to you. Once you know that, you can be more selective and weed out the good from the bad.. AND let your heart be open to the fullness of that relationship!! Just my thoughts... :)
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