I need to hear you say it. I need you to acknowledge the fact you were wrong and acting a fool. And the fact you may be bipolar. Your acknowledgment may be a start to your life and possibility of rekindling our friendship. I can't pretend what happened between us didn't happen. The fact you were immature and couldn't talk to me make me feel so low and that I did something beyond wrong. The way you behaved and said you didn't want to say anything you regret would make things worse. WTF did I do to make you feel that way and what the hell did I do in the last 90 minutes to make your blood pressure boil. Ok we both may have had drinks but I know myself and the nature I may be so I for darn sure I wouldn't do anything vicious or conniving to hurt anyone especially people I care about. So for you to be upset has to be deeper than what happened. If you're going to blame me please take a look at yourself before you blame your pain and hurt. The last thing I want for anyone to endure is to know I was part of their pain and hurt. I just want you to acknowledge whatever happened between us will not happen again. I suppose theirs no guarantee to that but at least a start to our friendship and misunderstanding is to understand ourselves first. Please I'm open and want to learn how I can be a better person to establish a better friendship between us. But for you to pretend time will heal things is just time prolonged. We need to get to the root because we can all pretend nothing happen but in the back of my mind my walls are up and I can't be genuine and true to you or me. So if you want us to get back to where we started I need to know you know that I know this is something that can't be let go so easily. So please let's not fake the funk by letting steam cool off because the steam may have left but burns can leave scars for a long long time. The truth is I don't know if I'm ready to rekindle our friendship.
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