I don't like his last name (Part 1)

Let me start off by saying dating isn't fun anymore.  "It's like a job interview with cocktails" says Carrie Bradshaw from Sex and the City :)  It really is because I've been on two dates with two different men and its becoming blatent on my face that I'm either bored or not interested and the sad part is they've noticed.  My response is "no I'm fine I'm enjoying myself.  I'm sorry we are conversing right?  No sure how enthused I should be?" with a smart smile.  I know I shouldn't complain but that's what I'm experiencing. 

Well here's the story about Mr. Last name.  I have to say he did get my attention loud and clear as I'm at a network event socializing with a new gal pal.  He approaches from the side of me as I'm in a heavy conversation with a female.  He grabs my hand and excuses us and introduces himself and had to say how he noticed me as I walked in and he couldn't help but to meet me etc.  I know so cheesy and charming at the same time.  I'm here with a gushing smile and just flattered by the attention.  So he continues to woo me with his compliments and he grabs my hand and we started dancing.  I can't help it I liked his confidence and his humor.  We clicked instantly but I immediatly had reservations.  He was just too charming for me to where I felt like something was up.  I didn't pay too much attention to it as I know how I can over analyze things plus my gal pal helped bring me back to earth about a different topic.  He wasn't too far from me and every time I would make a slight gaze towards him I'm already catching him looking at me.  I go and turn away quickly and I notice another guy sitting down accross from me he smiles and gives me a funny sarcastic look as if he's mocking the event and I smiled back in a confused manner because I'm surprised he even noticed me.  I noticed him at several events and would ask other women about him but no one's for sure what's his story other than they know him from somewhere else.  He's tall and very handsome.  He def. looks like the artist Maxwell so you know I'm already in.  Of course I continue to socialize as my gal pal gets up and gets ready to leave I take her place and stood at the bar and chatted with her male friend. A few minutes goes by and Mr. Maxwell takes her seat and sits next to me as I'm still standing.  We both made eye contact and I smile and blurted out "did anyone ever tell you you look like Maxwell?"  he says yes I've gotten that and smiles back.  Then all of a sudden my 2 second eye connection was interuppted by the male friend about some travel deals.  The man was so passionaation about this travel deal to where he busted out with photos, contract info. etc. and I had no choice but to pretend I was listening when all the while I think Mr. Maxwell was trying to get my attention.  I felt like I should have made myself more available but that was his queque to say something to me as I did compliment him.  He continued to sit there as Mr. Sales Traveler was in my space having now clue he was cramping my style.  Mr. Maxwell finally left but I had no worries because I know I'll see him again soon.  I'm just glad he finally noticed me and made somewhat of an effort to get my attention.  Or this could of all been in my head.

Now when I say he made an effort let me explain by that because he really didn't but what I've noticed about men lately is that they don't really approach women especially the ones where they don't have to.  They are that vain to where they don't believe in the value of chivalry anymore so they are use to women approaching them. (women are thirsty at the bars)  I'm not that gal.  So for some magical reason he had to make it easier for me to say something once he got closer to me.  That was the effort he made.  And of course I took the bate and complimented him.  I felt the conversation could have extended if I wasn't distracted by Mr. Traveler but that's part of the game of acting like I wasn't sweating him either.  We shall see if he remembers me next time.

Back to Mr. Last name I'll tell you more about him next time hehe.

Hello World

I'm back to sharing my world and views again.  It's been a long, long time getting back to this.  I've missed this, getting back to reflecting and understand everything around me.  I have some much to tell and reflect that I have lost a moment of myself like now to spend time with myself and do something like this that I enjoy. 

It's great practice to get back into the swing of things now.  I can't even explain where I have been lately but there has been some dramatic changes to my life but then there hasn't as far as being in a relationship and experiencing the excitement as I once did when I first moved to this new city. 

Have I changed?  I'm not sure a part of me has been more driven, less inspired, complacent at times but for the most part I do have a new circle of friends to where I have called this once new city my home.  I have made it my home and I'm ready to share what my home has given me so far.

Looking forward to sharing again!